Story of My Feelings

Why can’t we
just leave this
universe behind
and jump to one
where we are
together

To erase
a lifetime’s
worth of choices;
just gone.

We would be
free to rewrite
our story.

Two lives
that were
split and
somehow
switched
could be
reunited.

Nay!
Tis not
possible!
There is
no link
between us
and that
illusory
universe.
That is,
except
within our
own
imaginations.

Truth be told.
I’ve visited
that universe,
and that’s
why I thought
I would
share it.

It exists
within my
soul
because
I’ve been
there,
and
it will
always
be
with me.

We've all seen it, we may have even felt it ourselves, and it goes by many names. Even so, it is by far one of the hardest lessons for anyone to learn. Simply put, "The idea of wanting something, nearly always, is far more enjoyable, than actually having what you desire."

Now that I've thought about it some more
a nice little Sportster 883
or convertible Nissan 370Z Roadster
might be just as nice

If I could be granted just one wish
During this Holiday season
It would be for everyone
around the world
to look within themselves
and love their soul,
truly love themselves

As with all changes, sometimes it takes a while before we truly understand what things mean. Some call it hindsight, but we all usually arrive at a moment after we've made a change, when the true impact of the change becomes clear.

When change is thrust upon our lives, then we must follow the Kübler-Ross model until we reach the stage of acceptance, do we achieve peace and understanding. Now the five stages of grief are usually reserved for dealing with death or tragedy, if we are listening to our soul, as Thomas Moore suggests, the definitions of what is tragic broaden.

As anyone who has passed from full employment to disability knows, there is no other way to describe the change than tragic. So, at least for me, getting to the point where I accept disability is ongoing. What I think is more elusive is getting your loved ones to see disability as a tragic change and undergo their own process of grief.